How do I stop the addiction?

I first talked about collecting encapsulated books in part 1 on 20/Nov/2009. Since then it has been tough to budget. I now have one complete box of CGC graded books. I have more on a shelf to fill another box and by the time I finish Wizard World 2010 in June I will probably have a third box filled (if not four). The current problem is I only have one box. I need to purchase more at the show since none of the comic book shops I can get to have them. I found many CGC books on E-bay and I felt compelled to bid for them. Some I won and was happy I did. Unfortunately as I continued to bid on E-bay, Heritage Auctions, and Comic Link I had to dip into my cushion zone to continue my habit.

As my extra funds dwindled I vowed not to purchase any books in March. So, thirty days later and ten more books to my collection I vowed not to buy any CGC books for the month of April. I am now twenty-two days in and have still kept with my promise. Unfortunately, my cushion is still something closer to holding pins then something I could fall comfortably in. I also have to hold off purchasing any graded comic books for the month of May. I had trouble the past twenty two days. I have no idea how I am going to get past the next forty plus days.

The convention begins June 11th and I fear that I will not purchase any encapsulated books on e-Bay or any other auction site, until after the convention. I still watch the auctions to try and find that one book I am allowing myself to bid on. I have a side stash of cash just for the convention. I have at the moment 8 books for them to grade on-site. I then have another fifty books to bring so they can be taken with them to pre-screen. I of course am looking to get all 50 pre-screened for a 9.8. If they all do get that grade I will be spending close to a thousand dollars on getting them graded, insured, and shipped back to me. Am I crazy, deranged, or just infatuated?

Over 60 encapsulated books later I feel it is still not enough. I want to buy another one to add to my collection but I am afraid I cannot stop at just one (it sounds like a potato chip commercial). Of course if I reach my cushion goal quicker I know I will immediately start bidding again, either that or I have to bring less to the convention with me. What would you do?

Thanks for reading

Tnerb