I have endured dialysis for 4 years now waiting for a kidney and pancreas. There are good days and bad days. For me comics make it better. Chatting with doctors or nurses about comics makes me not seem sick for a moment. I totally get the being scared part. Let me suggest this. Any time you feel the fear welling up within you, think about your friends that made this post and remember you inspired THIS. All we can make it thru is one day at a time. In the beginning I used to fear what I was losing or going to miss out on. However it took my focus off of living with what I have. Cry everyday, Laugh everyday, Love everyday, and read comics. The rest will balance out. Good luck to you and your family. I will keep you in my prayers.