gabe, if you have a smart phone, you don't need lists, or memorizing or any of that...the information is accessible almost instantly these days thanks to technology...
that said, I've read a good bit of the thread and the one underlying advice a multitude (almost 100%) of boardies have given you, you refuse to follow...
now, I don't know you much, but I do gather you enjoy the business of comics... that said, if you don't have the aptitude for it (whether a ld or not), you are destined to continue making the same mistakes ... trying harder or taking other advice, won't likely change that
however, I can't and won't give you specific advice, as I am not qualified to relative to your situation... but I will offer this general piece of advice...
"if at first you don't succeed...try, try again...if you still don't succeed, try something else"....